Come Out, Come Out Wherever You Are...

Shhh..be vewy vewy quiet..I am hunting skinny chics. Can you hear her? She's screaming to be heard, but that fat chic...man she's one major bully and overly pushy about getting her way. Okay, maybe not so much hunting the skinny chic as I am the healthy one hiding somewhere around here. I just can't seem to find her. Which sucks for me, that means I have to wade through a load of crap to find her. Or a load of poundage..brought to you kindly by a load of crap throughout time! I have been reading Secrets of a Former Fat Girl...very interesting stuff indeed. I am not too far into it, but some of the most interesting things have been about hiding, which if you ask me is a catch twenty two of sorts. Or, you may not ask me, but I am going to share my thoughts with you anyhow..xD Ah, yes...the pounds have been packed on to hide me from a cruel world. I am not one to believe in blaming my past for everything that goes wrong in my life..I make my own decisions and choices, but your past does shape who you are to some extent. So my hiding started a long time ago..with a few deep secrets only a few know about. I may, in time, come to share more of this when I become more comfortable with my journey. Now, here's the catch, by hiding behind the food have I not made myself more noticeable? You know what I mean..the stares, the spoken, and unspoken words. How about the.."you'd be so much prettier if you just lost the weight". BITE ME!!..*smiles angelically* since when is beauty only an outer thing..oh yeah..I forgot...the society we now live in. So I look to my inspiration...my Brookie Cookie, who has lost 100 lbs with Weight Watchers..congrats girl..you are always beautiful to me! And I look to find my motivations...but oh my!! Where has it gone! I have all the right reasons in place...all the right inspirations and motivaters...but for the love of all things great and small...preferably smaller at some point, thank you...how do you keep your poor heart and mind in the zone! How do you come out of hiding and face...well...yourself?

Love and Rockets